Sitting in the sunshine, I opened the Book of Awakening. Bookmark was still on February 9 & 10. Here’s the entry that caught my attention immediately:
What Life Asks of You
How are you tending to the emerging story of your life? ~ Carol Hegedus and Frances Vaughan
Like so many of us, I seem to be continually challenged not to hide who I am. Over and over, I keep finding myself in situations that require me to be all of who I am in order to make my way through.
Whether breaking a pattern of imbalance with a lifelong friend, or admitting my impatience to listen to my lover, or owning my envy of a colleague, or even confronting the self-centeredness of strangers stealing parking spaces, I find I must be present–even if I say nothing. I find I must not suppress my full nature, or my life doesn’t emerge.
Aside from the feeling of integrity or satisfaction that comes over me when I can fully be myself, I am finding that being who I am–not hiding any of myself–is a necessary threshold that I must meet or my life will not evolve. It is a doorway I must make my way to or nothing happens. My life just stalls.
Tending to our stories means that our lies must open if we are to live in the mystery; our ways of hiding, no matter how subtle, must relax open if we are to be.
*Center yourself and meditate on the emerging story of your life.
*Breathe slowly and consider what your life asks of you so that it can emerge.
*Breathe fully and consider how you can better meet this inner requirement.
I ask you, my friends, how can we doubt that the guidance is always present? There is EVER a Divine synchronicity at work in our lives. Ask–and the answer comes.
I’ve read it before, but yesterday it jumped out at me: “Having the life you want by being present to the life you have.” This caption is printed across the bottom of the cover to The Book of Awakening, an offering of daily meditations for awareness. “Having the life you want by being present to the life you have.” It has played over and over in my mind. I’m a firm believer that signs and messages come to us in the most ordinary of ways, every day of our life–and here was a very clear one.
As if that wasn’t enough, I sat down this morning to read some of the “O” magazine that arrived yesterday. Two more messages came, offering further contemplation and perhaps a sense of peace nestled within. The first, a woman who shares “Five Things I Know for Sure About Aging.” Number one–the more we try to look young, the older we feel. It’s the same message isn’t it? Be who you are. Learn to love where you are in life. From here we naturally want to add: See the good in your life. But message number three makes clear it’s not all about joy and sunshine: Embrace the beast within. We are each made up of both beauty and beast.
Bringing these three messages together naturally leads to the spiritual journey (doesn’t everything though?). One of our greatest challenges here in Earth school is to live empowered, seeking out our own authenticity and living fully in who we are. As long as we focus on someone else’s life, youth, beauty–then we miss the experience of ourselves. THIS is the journey my friends.
Being present in the life you have doesn’t mean it’s all peaches and cream. What it does offer is an honest perspective of who you are, how you feel, what you desire and the deepest, most intimate truths of yourself. Trying to “look young” or even “stay young” equates to trying to always “be good.” So unrealistic for a human being–and what IS “being good” anyway? Aren’t we really here to be the best of ourselves? Perfectly imperfect? As for the “beast within”–that’s true for all of us. Understanding and accepting this removes the necessity of “being good,” does it not?
What I would love for each of us today is to embrace ourselves as living the life we are meant to live, having the challenges meant to strengthen us, aging and maturing with grace and elegance, and being who we truly are–all without apology or regret. We are Divinely engineered loved ones, by the greatest Architect there is. The truth of it lives within, waiting for us to awaken to its presence and power. Listen, for you will hear its voice…..deep within the whispers of your heart……
The following is from The Book of Awakening, subtitled “Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.” Author Mark Nepo has written a very poignant short message for each of the 365 days of the year. It’s part of my new year gift to myself to spend some time with each day’s wisdom, allowing it to implant itself into every cell of my body and enhance my connection to Spirit. I promise you, as you resonate with the universal truth offered in these messages, you will deepen your interior life….and open your inner ears to the whispers of your heart.
Show Your Hair
My grandmother told me, “Never hide your green hair – they can see it anyway.” ~ Angeles Arrien
From the agonies of kindergarten, when we first were teased or made fun of in the midst of all our innocence, we have all struggled in one way or another with hiding what is obvious about us.
No one plans this. It is not a conspiracy, but rather an inevitable and hurtful passage from knowing only ourselves to knowing the world. The tragedy is that many of us never talk about it, or never get told that our “green hair” is beautiful, or that we don’t need to hide, no matter what anyone says on the way to lunch. And so, we often conclude that to know the world we must hide ourselves.
Nothing could be farther from the truth. It is an ancient, unspoken fact of being that blackmail is only possible if we believe that we have something to hide. The inner corollary of this is that worthless feelings arise when we believe, however briefly, that who we are is not enough.
~ Sit quietly, with your eyes closed, and with each in-breath feel the fact that who you are is enough.
I believe not feeling “enough” is something we all experience many times in our lives. Nothing could be further from the truth. We are created as Divine beings, in the image of God. Within our makeup is the ability to understand wisdom, seek out truth and use our free will to choose what works best for us. There is nothing in our existence that is meant to be robotic or programmed. When we take on the belief that we are not enough, we begin to press ourselves into the shape that is most acceptable rather than embrace our natural selves.
Let yourself go, wear your GREEN HAIR proudly! For it is your green hair that defines you as YOU and culminates the uniqueness of who you are. And my lovelies…..YOU ARE ENOUGH. Allow yourself to feel this, to take it in. As the meditation above suggests – breathe it IN. When you think of it today, breathe in “I am enough.”
When you connect to the Divinity that is you…..your heart will whisper her love for you……