Always there’s activity in Nature outside my office windows, overlooking the back yard. In this moment two birds sit quietly soaking up the sun..one a lovely brown thrasher and the other our ever present companion the robin. Each is in their own space of being, neither seeking to force something into existence. And as I contemplated what was in my heart, they became pure reflections of my own state of being.
There’s a lull–a pause, a breath–indeed a heartbeat of time in which it appears as though nothing really is happening. Reminds me of Socrates in the movie ‘Peaceful Warrior’ teaching Dan: “There’s never nothing going on.” And so even while it appears time stands still in this place of my own journey, there is a tremendous amount of inner transformation taking shape.
I’m merely…’soaking up the sun.’ This is a space in which I am allowing the light to penetrate my spirit and the call of my soul to be felt. The words aren’t yet clear, but the feeling, the *knowing is certain. There’s a stirring….of something beyond my own comprehension. And so it is entirely in the hands of Divine wisdom to guide its unfolding. For there is very little human action I can find to assist its manifestation.
Soaking up the sun, allowing its warmth, its love and the grace of its brilliance to envelop my entire being. Pausing, taking breath and choosing to be still long enough to let it penetrate, rather than flail around in vain attempts to force it into a vessel of being–not its own. There’s a calm in this place, surrender. There’s an opening taking shape, creating the way for the presence of Divine being to enter. And this is exactly where I choose to be…soaking up the sun, welcoming All That Is to use me at will. The soul needs service. And I’m going to be still long enough to answer the call.
The beauty of this place is that even though there is not an earthly direction in which to travel, there is always the deeper connection to my spirit that brings a sense of peace. So when the heat reaches a temperature that feels unbearable, and when the stillness becomes so silent it feels no longer tolerable…I have only to be still yet another moment and listen….for it is then I feel the all-encompassing embrace of love….in the whispers of my heart…..