Allow the Unexpected

How’s that for no comfort?

Paint. That was my intention this week. Wasn’t sure just how it would play out as there are a couple of paint ‘projects’ I want to attend to. The first is to paint our kitchen and breakfast area….which honestly, I’ve painted at least four times since we moved in seven years ago. I’m a compulsive painter of rooms in the house. Love to see the colors change, to feel the fresh energy in a room when the paint is freshened. And then there are those rooms/colors that I just haven’t yet gotten quite right. Because when I do – there is a harmony that ensues and that room is left alone. Our dining room is a beautiful shade of red…I’ve loved it since we painted it…and haven’t thought to change it once. 

The second ‘project’ is to paint some pottery for gifts. I have at least three in mind, complete with the design and colors. I’ve been carrying these intentions around with me for a few months now. To be fair, the kitchen painting required being ready to undergo painting that space AGAIN and getting in the right creative energy to choose a color. I’m ready now. Have the swatches….letting the options swirl around a bit. The pottery requires committing to a day of going and doing it. I was fully prepared this week to go and do it – and I realize as I’m typing that I have been previously as well – in my thoughts at least. 

Some ‘unexpected’ things came up this week. It doesn’t matter what they are. My intention was to paint…and just typing out that ‘um….nope, I didn’t do it’….feels uncomfortable for a moment. And yet, I’m fully clear on how it all played out, so into this space comes some letting go (yep, the spiral continues) of what my mind says should feel humiliating. THIS is the exact reason I have kept myself from saying some things out loud, from setting goals. I’m a strong believer in my own free time and my ability to choose what feels right for me in each moment. I love MY spontaneity. (Although, ironically, I don’t always initially enjoy someone else’s, lol.) 

I’m not humiliated. I don’t feel defeated or embarrassed. I’m Jackie and life happens. What I do not want this challenge to become is a means of forcing myself to do something just for the sake of doing it. So instead, I’m allowing the process to move as it will rather than ramming it into a space that would presumably be more appealing and deserving of accolades. There wasn’t any literal painting this week. Instead, there has been a letting go of needing to make it happen, just because. I know it will in its own time and I am at peace with that. 

 

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32 thoughts on “Allow the Unexpected

    1. THANK YOU FOR THE EMAIL
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      CAN’T WAIT TO READ YOU SOON ……

      ISN’T IT INCREDIBLE WHAT HUMAN BEINGS CAN SHARE
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      AND THE EVERYDAY STUFF OF LIFE
      AND HOW WE CAN ULTIMATELY FEEL THE ONES WE ARE MEANT TO BE CONNECTED TO ……..
      I TRULY BELIEVE NOW THAT THERE IS A SOUL PURPOSE FOR EVERY LITTLE SOUL HERE . MY MIND WAS TOO BUSY BEFORE – IT WANTED TO KEEP MY SOUL IN BEHIND WALLS ….

      WE CONNECT THROUGH THE UNCANNIEST OF WAYS – AND LIVE WITHIN EACH OTHERS HEATS – WITHOUT EVEN BLINKING AN EYE WE CAN SEND OUT VIBRATIONS OF LOVE AND SUPPORT AND HEALING —- WITH TRUE GRACE ,,,,,,,
      LOVE YOU XO
      CAT

        1. HEY LOVE 🙂 YES IT WAS THANK YOU 🙂 I REALLY LIKE THIS NEW NOTIFICATION THING——- WORDPRESS PEOPLE ARE SMART !!!!!! I SEE YOU HAVE TWO NEW POSTS UP …….
          JUST GONNA READ THEM NOW —– I HAD A THOUGHT ——- YES A THOUGHT – LOL 🙂 SMILES ….
          ABOUT YOU ————- YOU KNOW HOW THE WORD GRACE – AND THE WHOLE MEANING OF WHAT IT CANNOTES TO YOU IS IN A LOT OF YOUR WRITING ? 🙂
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          THAT THE WORDS AND MESSAGES YOU GIVE TO PEOPLE EVERYDAY – WELL THEY HAVE ENTERED YOUR HEART TO STAY – AND YOU FELL MORE AT PEACE ……..
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          THAT YOU DO FEEL THE GRACE YOU GIVE TO YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY – EVERYDAY 🙂
          MUCH MUCH LOVE
          AND YES IT WAS A LOVELY BIRTHDAY 🙂
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  1. JACKIE ————- GRACE GRACE GRACE ——– ><

    THIS IS WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT ON MY LAST POST …….
    HEARING HER SPEAK – AS OPOSED TO READING HER ——- AHHHH —- INCREDIBLE ——-
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    IF YOU COULD – I HAVE TO TELL YOU ABOUT HOW HEARING HER SPEAK PERTAINS TO WHAT I WENT THROUGH THIS WEEK …..
    AND I HAVE A FEW QUESTIONS TO ASK YOU – I WOULD LOVE TO TALK ON THE PHONE……IF WE COULD 🙂 XO I LOVE YOU
    HERE SHE IS —– 🙂
    LOVE FROM ALL OF MY SOUL ——– GRACE ____ XO

  2. BeWilding

    I think it’s very wise of you to not force yourself to do something, just for the sake of doing it 🙂

    This is my new “Home”. I’m only telling a few people and I wanted you to be one of them.

    Namaste, Jackie.

    1. I’m delighted to see you here…so glad you shared and are still present with us. Thank you as always, for your support and love. Hope the space you’ve created for yourself is bringing even more joy into your life. Love to you, my friend. xoxo

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    1. Thank you! ‘Lovely blog.’ I love that, truly–and I’m honored to receive the warmth you send.

      I’m a bit remiss in passing forward the awards I’ve received, but even though it’s been quiet thus far, I’m working on connecting with some new blogs and worthy recipients! More to come….xoxo

  4. I just finished writing my weekly summary post and like you, I was unable to achieve my original objective – to be present and in the moment.

    There were too many other things, habits, work, issues that encroached and derailed me. And then … everything dropped away. Strange how life is so allowing, isn’t it?

    1. Especially when WE allow it to be so. ; ) ‘Providence steps in’ — this was Morgan Freeman’s perspective on Master Class with OWN. When something seemed not to go in a way he thought it would, or even hoped — he could see looking back that Providence stepped in. We can’t see it from where we are at times….it’s only in retrospect we realize there really was a plan in action.

  5. The No Comfort Zone moves you deeper in a new way- challenging you around the tasks you set. I believe that you completed the challenge this week. It wasn’t about painting, just about holding that space of not doing what was set out, those goals, that uncomfortable moment where you so easily could have gone into feeling embarrassed or defeated. You could have chosen the feelings of failure or a set back, even though it wasn’t true.

    It shows how good your self talk is. How being in the no comfort zone is helping you find comfort in the truth of who you are.

    As I write this, my eyes are drawn to the recent tweets to the side of this box. Do not be satisfied with the stories that come before you. Unfold your own myth. ~ Rumi posted 19 minutes ago. You are unfolding your own myths, clearly and fully present.

    If anyone could learn just one thing from your writings beyond the love message it is this- honouring yourself. You are openly honouring all that you are and that is a beautiful gift to give one’s self. If we could all honour ourselves as you do, we would all be far healthier souls.

    This painting will happen when the time is right and you know it. You know you can paint. You know how that moves in your soul. This week you learned some other stuff too. Plus you paint words on a page, or on an email that come to life. Not all painting is as literal as your intentions were initially. Pretty cool month was January in awareness progression.

    Love you ❤

    1. As always, Anna, your love leaves me feeling warm and pure. Thank you. Reading your words brings about a resonance in my own being, all you say is my truth, too. There wasn’t an obvious painting, but there was a creativity that brought color into quieter spaces. And I’ve often wondered if the creative flow in my mind’s eye of what feels to be putting color to canvas is really just more and more bringing Jackie into being.

      I love you…thank you for loving me, too. xoxo

  6. well, it is winter, sluggish months by spring the energy and time will flow from you like swollen rivers from snow capped mountains. I have to paint the bathroom, been putting it off till winter saying when I can’t work outside it is something I can do in-doors. I have yet to open the can. But I had some rough days at work, “really rough” so I lay up licing my wounds. Now I read this and think about going and painting.

    (~_~)

    1. So the question begs: did you continue to care for yourself and your discomfort, or did you feel the need to get up and paint? I can tell you this, my dear friend, I felt the desire to open that can of color and make the walls come alive this last week – and she is beautiful! And then, after the stretching and twisting to fill in the pointed ceiling, I spent most of Friday relaxing and letting my body rest. Be good to yourself…..hope you’re feeling much better by now. xoxo

  7. More and more, we are learning to be. to release our own and others perceived expectations. To be able to say, “I thought I would but I didn’t.” When the time is right, spirit births that which we have been incubating – sometimes for weeks, sometimes for years. The mind will say “oh you’ve been talking about this forever” as if that is a shameful thing. The heart says “you’ll know when it is time”.
    walk in beauty, my friend.

      1. When the time is right – so true, my friends. What is required on our part is to trust that we will know it, we will indeed FEEL it. It’s true Melissa….no matter how long that lavender paint sits, when the creative muse begins to whisper and move you…..you’ll feel it and be compelled to respond to her call.

        Thank you for your always gentle and loving response, Joss. You’re such an inspiration to me. Sending love and gratitude your way today and always. xoxo

  8. I’m glad you decided to share on my Writing the Labyrinth page at Facebook directing me here since I’m engaged actively in my own writing process and spending less time online visiting others. In my own way I’m doing much the same as you … allowing my energy to flow gently where it will rather than directing myself to take action prematurely, so the synchronicity makes me smile as I leave this comment … thinking about following yesterday’s post at Giraffe Journal with two more labyrinth pieces today and tomorrow as planned. Guess we’ll see what happens.
    Hugs and blessings,

    1. Virginia, my friend–

      I love how you share so openly who and where you are on this journey. Feeling blessed to be connected with you as we grow together.

      As I posted on my FB page the other day, there feels to be something that calls us away from just ‘doing’ the writing, the posting, the day after day sharing in this way. And it truly takes courage to step back from that routine and let ourselves instead connect to the Source of our creative and sacred Flow.

      It’s a joy to share with others who ‘get it’ and allow themselves to share their truth. Much love to you. xoxo

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