Traveling Deeper into Authenticity

We are as Dorothy: following the ‘yellow brick road’ only to learn we ‘had the power all the time.’

It feels as though the transformation process is moving at a rapid pace just now. And as I am observing the journey of others, it’s clear this is not true just for me. I believe strongly that we are in a very crucial time of evolution; a space in which our choices carry enormous impact. Making even the smallest decision in our lives seems to release a chain of events that is so much more tangible than ever before.

The deeper we journey into the very soul of our authentic selves, the more our lights shine, the greater the energy we are manifesting. No longer is it just shifting quietly inside us, but the vibrancy of it is animating in a rather wild and miraculous way in our outer lives as well. The two have become intricately intertwined. Where once living a spiritual life meant meditating, burning incense, taking time to be in ‘quiet’–we are now being called to ACT on behalf of our inner truth. The quiet meditation is still part of our practice, but it is no longer enough. CHANGE requires ACTION. And these actions are not merely good deeds.

This energy emanates from the very depths of our souls–the place where our passion lives and breathes, with the brilliance of the perfect diamond. As we encounter enormous acts of inhumanity around the globe, we must turn to something equally as powerful to shift the energy. Prayer is always one of our greatest tools, and I do believe prayer has the power to align us with Universal will. Yet, there must be those of us who are willing to act on the beliefs that fuel our prayers and stand up, speak out and carry the torch on behalf of our planet–OUT LOUD.

As with everything there is a balance, and in no way do I intend to say that everyone must become an activist, taking up a cause and leaving behind our lives in its favor. There are those for whom a quiet inner life is their calling. And I do feel certain they too must live outwardly what they believe as truth in their souls. There are others who stand at the forefront of the movement for change, compassion, ‘Love in Action.’ But what must be true for all of us–however we live our lives–is that we will be asked to stand true in our beliefs, on whatever scale connects to our energies. And when that call comes, we must answer with authentic presence.

For me, the desire to be authentic is reordering so much of how I have lived. OUT LOUD sometimes feels uncomfortable. I can no longer simply keep people happy with quiet resignation of who I am. This is ‘Love in Action.’ And it moves beyond just myself and into a passion to share that love, honoring and allowing others to be their own version of Divine LOVE.

I invite you to travel deeper into your own authenticity and really explore what this all means for you. How do you stand tall in the ‘I AM’ presence that is our sacred being? And what must change in order for you to honor your own personal, inner soul calling? Are you willing to let go of the safety that comes from acquiescing to false truths within yourself? Our time is NOW, my friends. Each one of us is being called. The journey looks different on everyone, but its underlying truth remains the same: I AM a Divine being filled with sacred essence and have been gifted with the grace to live my truth.

Much love.


Transformation of *Not Knowing*

Two thoughts are floating around my mind today.  The first began yesterday when talking to my sister Lydia about Eckhart Tolle’s “The Power of Now.”  The excerpt she was discussing related to projecting our fears.  We have so much anxiety and worry over *not knowing* what’s going to happen with this or that–will there be enough money?  Will our children be ok?  Will we need to move?  Am I going to know my life purpose?–and then there are the even more formidable *what if’s.*  What Eckhart Tolle poses is that each of these worries aren’t even existing in our PRESENT life!  Instead, we have projected into the future a vast array of fearsome possibilities for what *could happen!  If we reel ourselves back in, we have only to take a moment to realize it has NOT happened, and we are creating a storyline of negative energy through our willingness to feed into the anxiety.  It feels a bit chaotic to even talk through this, doesn’t it?  Now imagine what THAT does to your spirit.  To your body.  To your psyche.  Exhausting, isn’t it?

The flip side of this is a very positive approach to *not knowing.*  No – we don’t – and isn’t that the amazing part of it all!?  ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!  When we embrace the not knowing and just go with the Flow, the sky’s the limit.  Very much like the message we shared in Beyond Our Own Belief is it not?  God has so much waiting for us, with infinite grace and gifts.  What on earth are we worrying about? 

So this is the message today friends, short and sweet.  Stay in TODAY.  There’s NO benefit to worrying about tomorrow…for what you might end up creating could be nothing compared to what the Universe is holding in her palm for you!  Open yourself to Her wonder.  She is with you always….in the whispers of your own heart……

The Chocolate Again

It was Forrest Gump who coined the now famous statement:  “Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you’re going to get.”  And so it is.

This is a personal story I’ll share with you today.  There is a miracle woven into the experience, although we couldn’t see it at the time of its occurrence.  Ours is a family that believes as many do, that things happen for a reason.

Back in October, we made the decision to find a new home for our dachshund Brady.  We got him five years ago to be a companion to our son, who was 11 at the time.  As Cliff and the family have grown, the time dedicated to Brady was becoming less and less, and we felt another environment might offer him more.

Letting him go was heartbreaking for all of us.  We had taken much time to sort out the pieces and make this choice.  The family who adopted him had to be just right, hand-selected by us.  When the exchange was finished, we were left with a lot of emotions.  We did our best to work them through and allow ourselves to move on with our lives.  When we thought or talked about Brady, we always felt a fusion of love and sadness in our hearts.

And then, at 10:17am yesterday, everything changed.  The family emailed and it wasn’t working out.  We had agreed that should anything like this occur, Brady would come back to us.  The initial feeling was a wave of emotion; but the underlying response was the same for every member of our family:  go get him.  NOW.

Brady’s here with us now, and life looks much different than it did in the quiet calm of early yesterday morning.  We are not who we were when he left, nor is he the same dog.  All of us have experienced a different side of life, and been changed for the better.  The “box of chocolates” turned our world upside down, for just a moment.  We had become used to the quiet of not having a dog to “worry” about.  This was going to reorder our lives yet again.  And for all of us, this love for Brady as our boy began to sing again in all our hearts.

Our “box of chocolates” is a very positive one indeed.  We are making a fresh start with Brady.  And we can love and appreciate him in ways that were impossible and unknown to us before.  He has a loving home where people are happy to see him.  No matter what has transpired to get us to this point, where we are today is filled with love and hope for what can be different because of what we’ve all been through.

There is purpose in everything.  We may not always know why, but there is a design for the order of our lives.  Brady is meant to be here, today, right now.  He chose to be with us, and we are choosing him too.  I believe we have all learned something about ourselves, individually and together, in this process.  Our hearts have felt enormous pain mingled with and overshadowed by the depth of love.  We have learned to be better humans because of what Brady is teaching us.

And so, although we had no idea what Saturday’s “box of chocolates” held for us, the filling was delightful, with unexpected sweetness.  Had our hearts not been through the last three months, we couldn’t have savored the joy we were given.

I believe we followed our hearts the whole way through.  What a unique perspective on how listening to its whispers brings unexpected joy into our lives.  We couldn’t have appreciated Brady the way we do now.  For we were not here.  The whispers of our heart brought us to this place.  And there is a box of exquisitely wrapped chocolates for you too, if you but listen to the whispers of your own heart…..


On Being a “Good Girl”

At a quiet moment in my day yesterday, I had one of those AHA! moments.  The kind where something that has always been part of your life changes its meaning and form, a light bulb goes off and you become enlightened to a rich awareness.

We all have the dialogue that goes on in the “back” of our thoughts.  That voice that can be our mother, our judge or another archetypal presence.  In this particular instance, it was that “mother” voice within my own consciousness that came to the stage.  I heard her say “that’s right, good girl” in support of what I was doing.  And in that exact moment….the switch flipped!

I really could feel the energy within myself change.  We’ve all experienced these moments, and really, they’re quite stunning are they not?!  In my younger years, I soaked it up every time my mom said out loud or even hinted at me being a “good girl.”  This meant I was loved, and as many of us do I took on that to be a “good girl” – to be loved – I had to be pleasing in my actions and my words.  A rigorous code of conduct began to weave itself within my subconscious, driving me to always be pleasing to others in order to be liked or loved.

But here’s the AHA! moment, my friends.  The entirety of my being realized in the space of a nano-second – this is not true!  The goodness of my “good girl” is love, kindness, joy.  That was what my mom could feel.  THAT was why she said “good girl” to me, filled with loving sentiment.  I didn’t have to get A’s, make sure my mom was happy, try to hide any perceived flaws or mistakes.  I just was me….and that was enough!  I was a “good girl” and indeed am a “good girl” just because I am Jackie.  Just because I love to love, respect people where they are, offer kindness and caring.  And even in the times when I struggle to find this place in myself, the good does not go away.  I don’t have to earn my goodness….it just is!

What a liberating, exhilarating and incredibly uplifting realization!  This changes the whole order of your existence, an AHA! such as this!

You too are GOOD.  Not because you have to be, but because you are.  I love the first line in Mary Oliver’s poem WILD GEESE:  “you do not have to be good.”  What she conveys is you do not have to try to be good by human standards.  You are good in the eyes of the Universe.  Take a pause, and let that sink in.  You ARE good.

Your heart will tell you so.  When you pause….listen to its whispers and feel the goodness that is you.

On Being Broken

The message that continues to make its presence known is centered around transformation; letting go of what we hold onto so tightly, to allow for what is next to come through.

In Avatar there was a line:  “It is hard to fill a cup that is already full.”  When we spend our time and energy holding on to what WAS rather than looking into today and seeing what IS, we are robbing ourselves of the potential we all carry.  Spirit is speaking to us daily, offering us opportunities to create change, to be the architects of our own destiny.  Sitting still, we miss out on the gifts and miracles that will be the catalyst to transform our pain, our need to control, our fear, our self-destruction into healing, trust, peace, self-esteem and LOVE.

Can you imagine?  Love knocks on your door, desiring to be the center of your life, but asking you one thing in return:  you must give and receive her unconditionally.  You must put your ego on the shelf, quiet the need to be right, to be understood, to have it your own way…and choose…to LOVE.  We must allow ourselves to be broken, so that what we cannot see, but most need can enter the cracks of our soul, of our heart, and weave love into every crevice.

It was 3 or 4 years ago now that I did some work with Debbie Unterman, an alchemical hypnotherapist here in Atlanta.  During one of our sessions, I remember so clearly saying that I couldn’t let go, I couldn’t feel or relinquish control because I was like an egg – and if I did let go – I was going to break.  And from that session I learned, it was ok to break, for there would be a new me born of what remained.  I can promise you that my life has changed dramatically since then; perhaps less on the outside than from within.  My controller worked hard inside of my emotions, quieting my voice, dampening my spirit.  There were some very tough places along the way, in which I certainly did feel emptiness.  But love has and continues to fill those spaces, opening me to richness I could only have imagined.

Take a chance, let go, allow yourself to break, knowing the love and light will fill you up if you let it.  Open yourself, your spirit; listen to your own voice.  For it is then you will hear the whispers of your heart.

We Are the Change

Here we are!  It’s 2011 and we’ve made it!  Our world consciousness is shifting….and we are alive to be an active part of the movement.  How absolutely invigorating!  I urge you to see yourself clearly, with full open eyes.  Understand the importance you bring to this time in history, the value of your gifts and talents, the most perfect hologram of love….this being that is YOU.

I’m a firm believer in our spiritual “charts” (astrological) and “contracts” (archetypal).  We were active participants in designing each, determining what course was most conducive to our soul’s journey in this life.   Together with our Master, Teachers, Guides and Loved Ones, we looked into this time of history and chose to be right here, right now!  We orchestrated who we are, what we’ve brought and how we will navigate our way through seeing, knowing, loving ourselves and the world around us.  Doesn’t that reality send a spine-tingling awakening call to your spirit?!

The challenges and triumphs that move us along the highs and lows of our lives, these were meant to be a part of our Earth School.  What we experience here molds us into a perfectly imperfect spirit-human being who can affect change.  We EACH have a contribution to the consciousness on our planet.  The smallest thoughts of love and kindness, to ourselves or to others can make a difference.  Truly….we know this already, do we not?

I really love Gandhi’s quote:  “You must be the change you want to see in the world.”  Well, loved ones….we are the change.  YOU are the change.  Embrace the privilege to be so.  See this era in our Earth’s timeline for just what it is….a tremendous shift in spiritual and self awareness.  Feel within yourself the power of that, the beauty of being alive RIGHT NOW.  And then, take a moment to yourself and breathe deeply into your heart, feeling GRACE envelop you in her warmth.  She is ever with you, lighting your way as you take each step forward in your soul’s voyage here.

And in the presence of grace…..listen…..for your heart whispers to you words that only you can hear.