Seeing Through Grace

It’s not an easy thing to let go of what seems obvious, especially when it stirs those emotions deep within us. I was given an opportunity to do so last night and this morning following a very unpleasant experience. Our son is home from college, and while visiting with family at our home after dinner last night, proceeded to answer my brother’s question “how are things going with your friend and his dog?’ ‘Oh, well, he went away and locked the dog in the bathroom for the entire weekend, she destroyed it, ripped up tile and chewed on stuff (the dog is a puppy), so he took her out in the woods and left her.’ Ugh. Ouch. Oh, my dear friends, I still feel my heart break as I type this. There was an audible gasp in the room by all who were present, and then an onslaught of disbelief, anger, heartache all directed toward our son. He’d been quite flat in telling us, as though it was of little consequence. Our older daughter is one who will become very passionate and at times quite aggressive in advocating for something she believes in. The heat quickly rose and all that warm family-all-together energy dissipated into heaviness. My brother walked out. He was too angry and hurt to say anything. I finally stepped in and told the two older kids that was enough. There’s no point arguing about it and pointing fingers at one another. 

It was quiet as I struggled to maintain composure while cleaning up the kitchen. I couldn’t do my usual dance of trying to smooth it over without being confrontational. Generally, I can honor both sides and allow them to speak whatever they have and not be too swayed. Not this time. Too close to my heart, and I’ve moved too far away from the ‘usual dance.’ Instead I came upstairs and let the tears come. I could feel my own anger at our son for not having more compassion, not doing something, not at least feeling as heartbroken as I was. Surely from the outside, it looked to everyone in that room that he was cold and didn’t care at all. It definitely felt that way to me. 

When I woke this morning and began writing about it, it became crystal clear. It’s not at all that he’s cold. He’s still the same boy who was terribly disturbed over his friend’s parents happily watching a chipmunk drown in a barrel of water because it had torn up their yard. The difference is that he lives out in the real world now, and has yet to find his own center. He has no idea just how to stand firm in what his heart tells him. Not only is he young, but he’s a male and that makes it ever so harder when it comes to expectations for how to be. We are coming out of a time when men were forbidden to have hearts. My husband’s father told him to stop crying at baseball – there was nothing to cry about. It wasn’t ok. It still isn’t in some environments. At college, away from home and security, trying to just survive, it isn’t ok to have a heart and speak up for an animal who is being mistreated–at least in his perspective at the time. Whether my son knew it or not, that was the defense. He was protecting his own need to survive, to be accepted and be ok. 

It would have been so easy to let my emotions decide how to be with our son, to be angry with him because my spirit was so pained. That would only have served to become a power struggle. My way, my truth pitted against his. Instead, it felt right to share with him how it made me feel and to ease into letting him know I understand how difficult it must be for him to make it at college. He’s been quite homesick over the last several weeks. His whole reality has shifted in a way we sometimes forget occurs when our children leave home. To the world, it may look like an exciting time to get out on your own and have new experiences. But to some of our children, it’s empty, frightening and uncertain. It’s a natural thing to seek the best way to survive and get through it, and I know that’s what he’s been doing. To have responded with harsh judgment would only have created friction between us and deepened the inner turmoil I know is there beneath the self protection. Letting him know I understand what he was feeling and I still love him seemed to allow him to put down his internal weapons and consider some alternate scenarios. 

GRACE is what allowed me to shift my vision. She whispered through my pen, letting me ‘see’ the truth of what his energy was saying. GRACE. A mystical substance with the power to alter our reality. And, I believe, with the power to heal. So I’ll continue to heal my own cracks and wounds, while channeling grace to all animals who are in the way of harm, and to all beings who seek to become whole. This is my prayer. xo 

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Together We Are One

As I tuned in to my heart just now, the message that come was to ‘love me.’  Having kept up a rather rigorous schedule this last week, I understand fully this is a reminder to stay grounded, take care of my needs and feed my body and soul.  Thank you Universe, I hear, receive and choose to follow this guidance.

Yet, as I continued to listen, it became clear what the message is for us all.  As the lovely Shelly Wilson has said: “I am you, you are me, we are One.”  This is the inherent truth present in today’s whispering, and the Divine Universal absolute truth I wish to share with you.  ‘Together we are one.’ 

Yesterday was my day to go into the cat adoption room at Petsmart and love these precious beings.  Each of them has been rescued in some way and are ready and waiting for a forever home.  To spend time with them, loving them, caring for them and honoring their desire to be affectionately connected is something that warms my heart each week.  At times, I would rather just take care of things at home, but deep in my spirit is the call to love them, to honor them and to serve our Earth and her beings in this way.  And here’s what I know to be true–both for me, and for all of us: although I cannot give a home to each one (even though my heart would like to), what I can do is spend time loving each of them, and through this action the energy of loving, nurturing and honoring the sacred presence they carry, I am honoring, loving and nurturing all cats, animals, indeed all of Life.  And I can do the same at home with my own cats.  Being of service and a vessel of love and healing doesn’t always require us to go out into the world.  For some, we are called to serve from our own homes, through the energy we send out into the Universe on behalf of all of Life.

As we give the love we are able, allowing ourselves to open to what IS present and available in our lives, we uplift and channel that energy into the whole of Life.  There’s not one being on this planet who alone can change the world, who can touch every creature, every person, every living thing and impact change–alone.  But each one of us CAN honor the environment, people, animals and Life that IS present in our own space, our own homes, communities, etc.  THIS is how change occurs.  We must think globally and act locally.  As I love just one cat either in the catroom or in my home, that loving energy can be intended for all cats, to all animals, to our Earth.

And so today’s heart whisper…’love me’ is first about nurturing and loving myself.  But the picture is so much bigger, for you see ‘I am you, and you are me.’  So by loving and honoring the truth of who I am, what I need and how my life unfolds, I am honoring the same in you.  For the light I see in you is in me, and the love I give myself I give to you.  ‘Together we are one.’ 

As you go about your day today, honoring yourself and others in whatever way you do, take a moment to set your intention to send that loving grace out into the world.  When you hug your child, may it raise the vibration of love felt by all children.  As you feed yourself a healthy or even just satisfying meal, may all of life feel nurtured and satisfied in their bodies, hearts, souls.  And here’s what’s true friends: as you allow yourself to do this practice, pay attention.  For through it you can connect more deeply to the passions that live in your own soul.  We all have the potential to serve, to give, to love.  Where do you find yourself most yearning to do so?  As you begin to recognize just where it is, you can also allow yourself to become more active in supporting that cause, that belief, that truth. 

How do you know what that is and gain clarity in aligning your energy to your passion?  You know, dear ones….you already know.  Just take a moment, wherever you are.  Take a few throughout your day….tune in, check in with yourself and listen…..for we find our answers through listening…..to the whispers of our hearts…..

In Awe

Together with my dear friend Shelly Wilson, we’re holding an event filled with Divine love in our virtual community today.  It began last night and continues on into the evening tonight.  What amazes me beyond anything in that space, in the space of my own interior self, are the vibrations of grace, love and healing felt across continents and around the globe by the people who come together there to share and be as One.

In the summer of 2006, I was blessed and honored to be part of a group attending the Chartres Mystery School in Chartres, France.  As we prepared for our week of “classes,” we joined together in spirit each Sunday a month previous and shared in a meditation.  One in particular resonated with my spirit and has stayed with me ever since.  Close your eyes and visualize our Earth with points of light all around her wondrous lands.  Imagine the people, creatures and all of life living within and around each point of light.  Now see and feel a web of connection, joining each point of light, “connecting the dots” so to speak.  Throughout those silken strands, send the vibrations of love, healing and grace to all who surround that beacon of light.  In doing so, the energy reaches all around the globe, igniting a Divine love for all.

THAT my friends, is the energy emanating from our community in present time.  I believe it’s always there, but with this focused intention intensifying its power, the effect is felt one-hundred-fold.  We are so blessed, and we are feeling the healing power and burning heat of grace in our souls.  Together we are creating points of light, a community of sacred activists around the globe.  It’s inspiring, uplifting and deeply alchemical all at once.  WE are the change the planet seeks and desires.  Not because of WHO we are, but because of the energy we have tuned into and allowed to flow into, through and then reflect back out of our souls. 

This is an amazing time to be alive!  We are given the gift of connecting across worlds, races, cultures, continents without ever leaving the comfort of our home.  WE are the change my friends.  The march is on, the time is now, the course is shifting.  And how will you know what your call to action is?  What allows you to hear the voice of your own soul in this movement toward healing, wholeness and Divine being?  You know it’s true, of course…..just listen now and you’ll hear it….for it comes to you direct….from the whispers of your heart….

“BE THE CHANGE YOU WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD.”  ~ Gandhi

*Shelly and I would love to have you join us should you so desire:  Intuitive Spirit Happy Hour.  Truly – I am in awe.  We continue our event throughout the day, with spiritual teacher and healer Darrin Owens channeling messages from the Divine Feminine presence “Gloriana.”  Each one is charged with the power of healing, purpose and love. 

*I would also like to acknowledge the following, who have inspired some of what is in my heart today:  Wisdom University & the Chartres Mystery School, Andrew Harvey–Creator of Sacred Activism, Whispering Energy & the Great Collaboration