God Imagined It

I began to write a ‘Happy New Year’ post on Facebook, and it formed into a letter as the words poured out. And so I find myself here, with so much I wish to say. The irony of this moment is that I was here just this morning, ‘Add New Post’ screen open and ready for all I held inside to fill the page. But nothing happened…

It’s the quote Oprah has shared several times that got me:

God has so much more for you than you could ever imagine for yourself.

My fingers were dancing across the keyboard, thoughts and images coming in waves. What am I thankful for? What changed? How am I different now from January 2012?

Lauren and Cliff – TWO of our beloved children are now off to college. Lauren recently said this is no longer her home, it’s now her parents’ house. She’s found so much of herself this year, a mirror of her own mother who’s been doing the same. She at 19, as I melted into being 40. Clifford becoming a young man as he steps off into his much desired independence. That’s been his gift to me, his quiet spirit guidance – ‘Mom, let it be.’ Jordan, who wasn’t so sure she would like being an only child for the first time in her life–this beautiful young lady (I want to say ‘girl’) unaware just yet of her impact on this world. I realize sometimes I don’t allow myself to sink into what it is to love, to know and to be mother to these three children of ours. It makes me weepy to sit in it for a moment. They’re amazing, these human beings.

Soul Journey

I feel my inner critic reminding me how sappy this must be. But this is my blog, my space, my heart. This is her voice, here. Now. I couldn’t have imagined this life I have. I wouldn’t have thought to expect or ask for all that 2012 brought my way. It’s been an incredible journey deeper into our lives, into my self, my spirit, the interior of my soul. What I felt on January 2–Breaking Down the Box–became the theme of much of my year. Let go, release, liberate, allow. As Summer faded away and Autumn made her presence, the shift had occurred and was finding her way to the surface. With our family in transition and at ‘rest,’ I felt the call. It wasn’t what you might expect. There wasn’t any bolt of lightning. Steadily I’d felt it growing these last six months. And I couldn’t have imagine it this would be how 2012 ended.

Our children are nearly grown. Our marriage has strengthened – again in that quiet, subtle way – and our love has deepened. My heart is more open, although I would have thought it hard to believe that was possible. And not only my heart, my energy, my whole SELF. There’s a peacefulness I didn’t have a year ago. I’m content. (A little laugh here, remembering that ‘Contentment’ was the topic of my graduation speech, although I struggled to find any at 18.) I’ve created a business of my own, having desired and written about this in my journal for a couple of years. And this business is one that I love, that is of service to so many and creates a space of grace and collaboration–very fulfilling. We live in a new time, my friends. We’re alive at such an incredible time of our history. I am loving life and all She has brought to me in 2012. Every moment of heartache, every tear, kiss, smile and fit of laughter–I wouldn’t change a thing.

I couldn’t have imagined it. Ever. But here’s what I know–God imagined an extraordinary life for Jackie L. Robinson. I’m excited and so open to the moments of 2013–the ‘year of the soul.’ I’m in awe of this energy that has woven its way into my life, and I welcome all it has to offer.

Very deep gratitude to each one of you who is reading this, who’ve been here reading my words from the beginning and those who have recently connected. I’d love for you to leave a note so we can reconnect at the start of a new year. May 2013 bring your dreams to life, stir your heart with love, heal your pains. May you experience what it is to be at peace, to merge with the sacred, to feel abundant joy. May you open to all that awaits you. Believe in the most beautiful of who you are and trust there is a Force greater than you holding the rest. May it all be so. Much love to each of you. Happy 2013, my dear friends.

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Feeling Blessed

I’m not sure what to write today, only that I wish to be here and share. Generally I check in with my heart to see what lives there. Today, it just made me feel like smiling when I looked within. Our home is glistening with preparations for family that arrives today. Homemade holiday cookies are sitting here on the counter, bright and delicious on their Santa cookie plate. Yesterday was spent with my sisters and daughter baking them–‘laughing all the way.’ Although our lives are moving to the beat of a different drum during this time of year, there is something that feels alive and invigorated with the energy and rhythm of it all.

A sense of ONEness with our family, with loved ones present and past, with our holiday traditions steeped in the history of our family going back generations–these are the treasures that warm my heart. It feels important to honor who we are and where we’ve come from. Although the language may be different, the reality is that we are being offered this time of year to really let ourselves be seen, to love and allow love to enter our hearts. Walls come down as we fill with the warmth of connection.

I’m setting my intention to even more so honor my heart whispers this holiday season. With gratitude in my heart for all that has come since I embarked on this chapter of conscious open heartedness nearly a year ago, I’m choosing to open myself even more to the love that will surely be present in the people around me. And on occasion remember to close my eyes in awareness, remembering these are Divine beings that grace my presence. We are so very blessed.

I would be remiss if I didn’t take a moment to thank each of you who share this space with me. It’s been nearly a year since I began writing (blogging, but I really don’t like that word so much) again. Feeling your love and support on this journey is a gift indeed. I so appreciate you. Thank you all for the authentic presence you have brought here…and for opening your heart to me. When we open our hearts, we support others in doing the same. I’m feeling the grace of your gift that is YOU.

May your hearts be filled with love
Your homes with laughter and warmth.
And may you, too feel the brightening of quiet corners
Where the Light shines through.

All my love to each one of you.

This Day

This day will never come again. ~ Caroline Myss

An enormous amount of truth is contained in this tiny sentence. ‘THIS day will never come again.’ Whatever it is you are experiencing in THIS space of time, honor it and know in your heart you may never again return to this place. For those who may be struggling, the sense of comfort is immensely warming. These struggles, these challenges and the way in which your entire being is working through them–will never come again. Even when we face the shadows in ourselves that are deeply woven into our being and cyclical in fashion–each time we encounter them, they look and feel different somehow. We grow and heal through them, only to reach another layer of potential empowerment through the embrace of who we are.

And should we be in a time of joy and contentment in our lives, we can ease into this truth and allow ourselves to fully be present in the grace of the moment, the experience, the joy. Always there are gifts present to us in seeing ourselves and our lives through a lens of honesty, integrity and the willingness to humbly live our truth. All of life is a gift, all of our experiences are meant to enrich the journey of consciousness we are all taking and sharing together. ‘This day will never come again.’ Open yourself to it, invite its elegance into your being, dance with the melody it plays on your heart.

And here’s what’s true friends, indeed all of life is a gift. So too are WE a gift. As we move closer and closer into the center of our beings, honoring and uplifting the Divine presence we ARE, we stand taller and taller in the ‘I AM’ of ourselves. This theme has proven true in my own life over the last few months. Opening myself to be seen, to be heard and known in ways that previously contained fear and discomfort. Letting go of the worry and allowing each day and each moment’s Divine potential to be the mantra of my soul. It’s so simple, isn’t it? And yet, we complicate it in order to keep ourselves ‘safe’ and ‘protected.’ In reality, we only manage to create a barrier to the crystallized center of our spirit.

‘This day will never come again.’ As you allow this truth to penetrate your mind, your heart, your soul, what are the feelings that accompany its presence? How would you live today if it were never to repeat itself? What are the pieces of your life, of your self, of your IS-ness that would matter enough to honor?

Listen….open yourself to the voice of your heart, letting her music move you. All of your answers, all of your being and beauty live within the sanctuary of who you are. And dear friend….you already ARE…..you have only to see, feel and know it. Take this moment, in this place of time–for it shall never come again–and listen. Let yourself hear the truth of you…..as you tune in to the whispers of your heart……

*As I honor who I AM, I’ve simplified my Facebook fan page to just ‘Jackie.’ My writing will still be shared, as will other avenues of my spirit’s journey. I invite you to join me and shine your light in this space that is ours. Much love…xoxo

The Art of Gratitude

Gratitude.  Being thankful.  Receiving grace.  Honoring your self, your life, your experiences and all with whom you come into contact.  Imagine being immersed into a day filled with the art of gratitude.

It was years ago that Oprah first talked about keeping a “Gratitude Journal.”  Her suggestion was to write down at least five things you are thankful for each day.  With each entry of appreciation, your ability to see life through the lens of grace increased.  I wonder – how much do we really take the time to soak in the bounty of our lives?

Practicing the art of gratitude calls forth the essence of grace.  We become more and more able to withstand the difficult places in our lives and acquire the gift of seeing positively into each moment.  Our energy shifts into something Universal, transcending the earthly weight of suffering, disappointment and struggle.  We still experience the challenges, our hearts still break.  But through the power of grace–gratitude–we are able to fluently move through it; allowing ourselves to feel the emotions, share our feelings.  And then to find a space in which to embrace the stamina building in our souls with each trial occurring in our lives.

Practicing the art of gratitude will surely change your life.  The more you are thankful for who you are and the course of your journey, the more open you become to what is available to you in Spirit.  Practicing the art of gratitude opens the channels of grace.

Take this time…..be still…..ask your self…..for what are you grateful?  Where do you find the power of grace in your life?  Look around you – what do you honor?  Now listen…..for you will find your answers…..in the whispers of your heart….