A Decluttered Soul

As I listened today to Shelly Wilson and Sera Beak sharing a discussion, there was a very pronounced heart whisper–or perhaps more than a whisper–that came through loud and clear:

DECLUTTER

Yes, we all (mostly) know about the energetic benefits of decluttering our homes, cleaning out closets, drawers and other such spaces on a regular occasion. This is good for our physical and mental well-being, but also signifies making room for something new to come into your life and not holding onto ‘stuff’ no longer needed. Okay, I get that and it seems like it’s a bit of old news by now. We all understand.

This was different though. Sera was talking about making room for the soul to talk to us.

Declutter the Soul

Personally, I’m realizing–or remembering–some pretty significant things about myself, that are very true to my soul, to who I am and what I bring into and receive from this lifetime. As the path continues and I take each step, there are pieces that seem to be naturally ‘shedding’ and just falling away. It’s not even painful – it just IS. And as it’s happening, it’s so obvious there’s no chance of second guessing.

A Decluttered Soul

Thanks to Pinterest's Rebecca Minkoff for her gorgeous note.
Thanks to Pinterest’s Rebecca Minkoff for her gorgeous note.

That’s what I want.

I want to create space for my soul to breathe, to flush and flourish.

I want to give her elation in every ecstatic moment and quiet reverence for every tear shed.

I want to spread before her a gorgeous buffet of passions as she soothes her fiery appetite.

I want to dislodge antiquated beliefs in favor of her residence within the walls of my own glistening castle.

I want to lie beside her as together we make love with the Sacred.

These are the whispers of my heart…..

A Decluttered Soul.

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Sensation of Love

Maybe it’s because amazing people in my life are pouring their support, love and energy into these final hours of the Steps campaign–so close to my heart. Or maybe it’s my sweet niece and nephew and family time held in the circle of my home this morning over tea and breakfast. Perhaps it’s even the Christmas music I’ve just started listening to a few hours ago. Could be recent intimate conversations held with soul companions. I like to think it’s a combination of it all, but whatever it is–it feels amazing.

There is this warmth glowing in the center of my being, in that quiet heartspace that exists just behind where our physical heart is. It lights up every cell and makes me want to whisper words of love in every way possible to each person I love and those I don’t even realize I love. It’s an incredible feeling of oneness, of kindness, openness. There are no barriers, no limits or impossibilities. I love this sensation of Presence. I love feeling it, expressing it, owning it. It’s large enough in my awareness and energetic field today to make me weep.

Valentine sent to us by ladybug cousins.
Valentine sent to us by ladybug cousins.

I believe we are, at our very core, this essence of love. So often we hear about ‘beings of light’ – and we are. To me what that means is that we have an amazing well of compassion, of consciousness, of connection to all that is in this world of ours. We’re designed to love–it’s our deepest desire. And when we can let go of the fears long enough to just do it, there’s an exhilaration that follows. Certainly this creates an immense expansion of love blanketing our planet, our universe. Pause a moment and consider what that might feel like.

And so this is my love letter to each of you. I thank you for being here, for connecting with me. Whether we know each other personally or not, doesn’t matter. Our spirits recognize one another and that’s how we came to be here together. Let us revel in that. And if you feel so called, pass this sensation of loving along to those in your life, in your circle. However you wish, quietly or with the sheer joy and contentment of expression in your own unique way. But do let it flow into and through you. Life will rise to meet you in this, I promise you that.

Much love to you. xo

I AM Whispering

Quiet Whispers

I AM WHISPERING MY HEART’S INTENTIONS.

Prayer settles my heart because it is the place of communing.

My heart knows speaking and listening as one.

My desires are near me and prayer is my nearer voice.

Whispers of my heart pour out in the breath of prayer.

I am a part of what is wonderful.

I am filled by what is holy and good.

I am receiving what I need and giving what transforms me.

I am so alive from a whisper and a prayer.

I AM WHISPERING MY HEART’S INTENTIONS.

~ Carolyn Flinn McCool

Shared through Women as Visionaries with Lore Raymond.

This left me breathless with my own internal validation of truth as I read it. It came to me from one of the Sister Souls in my circle, Edgy Mystic Melynnda. Affirmation, blessing, prayer….heart whisper. I’m passing it on to you, dear friends. Beautiful. 

Who I Am

It’s a common enough phrase ‘I finally figured out who I am.’ I even heard it in a conversation with myself. You know–the kind we have quietly inside our own thoughts. But even as it subconsciously drifted through my mind, I felt a simultaneous questioning of whether or not that’s really true for me.

You see, it feels like we’ve for so long been focusing our attention on peeling layers to find our true self. And while I do agree with the benefit of processing to release what is no longer valid in our lives, in our selves, I’m not sure I believe that’s led to me finding this mysterious Jackie hidden underneath. What feels more authentic for me is that the commitment I’ve made to living as a whole, empowered human being has led to me accepting Jackie. I’ve been me all along. I’ve just been apologizing for that in the most subtle of ways. It’s absurd don’t you think–to not be ourselves because someone else might not feel ok about it? I have a very beloved friend with whom I can talk on the deepest of soul levels. We just ‘get’ each other in that place. She for so long carried guilt or shame about being a very fit and attractive woman. Family members made comment about ‘how nice it must be to be that small. I can’t ever remember being that little.’ My friend felt sorry that she was making others feel badly about themselves. All for just simply being. It wasn’t by any effort on her part–she just was. Why do we so naturally feel compelled to make ourselves ‘small’ in order to be ok?

And so it’s about fully accepting ourselves for who we already are rather than striving to become something else. The mystical nature of transformation is that it occurs all on its own, regardless of our efforts. When we surrender into the grace of our already-present and beautiful beingness we open to all possibility, we radiate gratitude and exude the true essence of what it is to be joyful. We feel the abundance in our lives, we see that same element of divine presence in others that we are feeling so fully within ourselves. And our world begins to elevate, rising to meet us.

Rather than asking and searching to answer the question ‘who am I?’ try instead breathing into the statement ‘who I am.’ Much love my friends. xo

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. ~ Marianne Williamson

Whispers in Reflection

I truly had no idea how dark this year has felt for me. Oh, I’ve moved along with each crisis, celebration and life event. And yet–I somehow stepped out of a sacred space, immersed more and more into the physical reality that swirled around me. The details don’t matter because my focus here is really the journey back into myself. My beloved soul companion Joss Burnel articulated it perfectly in saying that we each have times in our lives where our lives demand much of us and we exist in a different space. But when we come back into the quiet, the serenity, we feel before us a newness of ourselves and an opportunity in which to determine what pieces of our former life we will take forward. There is an energy of discovery in this new way of being that Life Herself has ushered us into.

DSC01356The whispers are returning, sweet friends. Those heart whispers that allow me to close my eyes and feel the Grace move through–those whispers that indeed allow each one of us to do that in our own unique ways. It’s not that we’ve been disconnected, only that for a period of time our attention and energy were needed elsewhere. It’s the ebb and Flow of our lives, though, isn’t it? It certainly has been for mine. I’m not sure I can recall a period of time in which so much has occurred in such a short space in my life. And I must admit I did find myself feeling it was absurd for all of this to be in MY life!? How on earth did this come to be? I don’t live this way. All those silly, false truths floated their way to the surface. And in reflection I see that I am human as are you–we each have these times in our lives and we are each given the gifts that reveal themselves as the dark veils begin to lift.

Our Sacred Circle gathering today was centered around the following passage from Circle of Stones. Upon reading it, I could sense the relevance to other times in my life, but it wasn’t until I sat in the beautiful, sacred circle of women I love that I really felt the truth of the darkness in my life so recently. It didn’t the look the way one might expect. I remembered to find consciousness through it. But that’s very different from moving into a deeply sacred, soulfully present space. THAT is the space I so love and find myself longing for. And that, my dear friends is the space we share here together. Thank you for bringing your presence into this extraordinary virtual sanctuary that is ours. We revel in the light of Divine Presence, and isn’t that, in truth, the space from which even the darkness originates?

From today’s event:

“How might your life have been different, if, as a young woman, there had been a place for you, a place where you could go to be among women… a place for you when you had feelings of darkness? And, if there had been another woman, somewhat older, to be with you in your darkness, to be with you until you spoke… spoke out your pain and anger and sorrow.

And, if you had spoken until you had understood the sense of your feelings, how they reflected your own nature, your own deepest nature, crying out of the darkness, struggling to be heard.

And, what if, after that, every time you had feelings of darkness, you knew that the woman would come to be with you? And would sit quietly by as you went into your darkness to listen to your feelings and bring them to birth… So that, over the years, companioned by the woman, you learned to no longer fear your darkness, but to trust it… to trust it as the place where you could meet your own deepest nature and give it voice.

How might your life be different if you could trust your darkness… could trust your own darkness?” ~ Circle of Stones by Judith Duerk 

Mystical Highways

There are moments when I think about our ability to connect with one another that it moves me to tears. For me personally, intimate connection is so important. It can be a struggle at times to interact on a surface level. 

Just contemplating how easily we can reach out and touch one another, how quickly information is shared, bringing us close together in the space of our hearts–it’s quite moving isn’t it? I’m elated to be alive in this time and space, to have a relationship to the energies that move beneath what looks like Facebook, Twitter, teleconferences, texting, etc. These are part of our ‘mundane’ world, but looking through the lens of the mystical, these are in fact energetic frequencies through which we can choose to heal and empower ourselves and others, or not. For me, they carry a means of joining heart to heart, in the space of a second. If we tune in to that energy field, we find there is much waiting to embrace us there. 

In in awe, really. In awe of the healing, the emotional release and soul companionship I’ve witnessed and experienced as I’ve learned and worked with social media and the internet. Imagine if you will, these exchanges as medians of light, highways on which we meet one another and exchange inner truths. It’s as though we are traveling an alternate reality, formed of our heart-centered connection. Words escape me, but the feeling is immense. It warms me from the core of my being as I feel the expansion of what is possible. Never in our written history have the ‘records’ and communication lines of connecting and sharing been so openly accessible. 

That’s what it’s about, isn’t it, my friends? Allowing ourselves to open, to flower from the inside out rather than depend on something in our outer world to mold us. On these invisible roadways, we are not our physical selves, but spiritual beings coming together to heal, to grow in our own truth and to honor one another. I’m feeling the fullness of that truth in my heart today. And if you’re reading this, you’re part of my circle, we’ve met somewhere on these paths of energy. I bow to you as we pass one another, or perhaps stop and share a moment of time with one another. As I close my eyes and look around this circle we’ve created together, my heart is warmed with the love  and grace that pool in its center. I say to each of you….thank you, thank you, thank you. xo 

If you haven’t yet, I invite you to visit Sacred Circle Retreats, where soul connection is offered through the mystical highway of internet. ; ) 

 

 

Love or Survival?

I’m working on the choice to love. It sounds so cliche’ doesn’t it? The ‘l’ word is thrown around all too easily in our ‘evolving consciousness’ culture. But it’s true, my friends, I am. Sometimes it’s a real challenge, too. And I’m not taking this commitment on lightly. 

Recently, in the midst of some angst around and within myself, I’ve had an AHA! moment that comes repeatedly, but not the kind of AHA! I’m used to. There’s no light bulb going off that awakens me to some deeper realization. And yet – the depth and reality are there. It’s as though I’ve suddenly woken up to find myself in some alternate reality where what was once true within my psyche no longer is. 

What is occurring is that my ‘survivor self’ is taking less and less control of my responses and natural reactions to situations. The AHA! comes when a voice inside recognizes that surprisingly – I’m not feeling jealous, frustrated, angry, resentful over experiences that at one time would have certainly ruffled my feathers. It’s almost like I’m shocked to check in and not find the old emotions there, lingering, waiting to be felt. And a couple of times I really did go on a search for them, checking every room, every crevice, every cell of my being–‘are you sure? Really? There’s no electric charge to get us fired up over this? How can that be?’ Each time the reconnaissance team comes back empty handed. 

Our survival team, through years of professional experience, has learned how to rescue us from something unpleasant. Sort of like that ‘fight or flight’ response, only different. This team’s job is to seek out any alternate route to FEELING out of sorts, even if that means defensive posture and feeling angry, resentful, etc. But the key, my dear friends, to releasing those emotions is moving THROUGH them. We cannot sidestep what is true, or what we are believing as truth, while in the heat of it. The survival team has such skill, that we don’t even recognize what they’re up to until we’re deep in the heat of defending ourselves, or sometimes not at all.

I choose to meet this team head on, to assist in creating a new strategy for the work they are here to do. ‘Please alert me when the temperature’s rising in there. Let me know when you are feeling you need to arm yourselves and prepare for battle–be it loud and boisterous or silent, but deadly.’ Most of all, I’m asking them to step aside sometimes and allow my heart to respond instead.  

The results are miraculous. It’s been an absolute delight to take a quick scan and find ‘nope, nothing here. We’re all ok!’ How strange is it that I’m shocked to, at times, find things at rest within my being! By no means am I saying I’ve arrived, it’s complete. There’s still work to do. Choosing to love instead of survive means releasing the need to understand; letting go of the need to hold someone accountable, to point fingers, to divert the energy elsewhere. It doesn’t mean I take it all on as my own, nor that I ignore everything and am immune to being present and feeling emotion. What it means, my dear friends, is that I have chosen to step out of the fear of the what if, howcome, who, when questions, to put aside my desire for answers, for responsibility to lie SOMEwhere–and to instead tune into my own truth. 

Amazingly, it’s not as though this has been a hard and arduous step of my journey. What it is is a breaking down of old patterns. Opening to a new paradigm and way of reading my inner truth and the world around me. My survival team has an important job–alert me when the troops are moving toward the weapons room. Far too many of these battles haven’t needed to be fought. I think often of Gandhi and his peaceful means of achieving change. The survival team can assist me in that intention. We can work together rather than me being enslaved to their whims. 

And I must tell you, my sweet friends, the shift is a refreshing change of pace! I’m absolutely in awe as a neutral witness to myself. I choose love. And with that I release the need to know why, to secure accountability and retribution. I choose love. She has plenty of beautiful, Divine power to effect the changes I desire from within. ~ xo