“What God intended for you goes far beyond anything you can imagine.” ~Oprah, Master Class~
Can you find in your life where this has proven true? It goes along with having our prayers “answered.” What we expect to be the answer isn’t always what the Universe lovingly holds for us. And yet, sometimes we’re so sure we KNOW how something’s supposed to turn out.
As I’m contemplating this quote by Oprah that I love so much, I’m reminded of my own marriage. At the age of 20, I was sure I knew what I wanted in a partner. A few years into our marriage, I was equally as sure I didn’t have it! We embarked on a rocky road that lasted for some time, albeit through some very good ups and not-so-great downs.
About five years ago I realized what is so true in so many ways in our lives: God gave me what I needed, and what my HEART wanted. He intended for me to have a partner who is loving, committed, patient, compassionate–and yes, as strong and determined as I can be. All of what I thought I was missing those early years was surface, the “niceties” if you will. When this whole time, the qualities that matter most were always here for me. I just wasn’t grown enough, open enough and healed enough to receive them.
What God intended for me went far beyond anything I could have imagined when I began this relationship journey. I couldn’t have known, and yet I was so sure I did. For a bit I was cross with the “powers that be” for putting me in a relationship that offered NONE of what I wanted. What on earth had happened?
It’s amazing to me now, from here, to look back and remember that feeling. But what is so much greater than that feeling is the *knowing inside of me that the Universe gave me the best possible partner, filling each of us with a Divine Love to carry our marriage through the most difficult of times. For here’s what’s true: there is no human love that could have fulfilled such a tall order.
I am so very blessed. And while much of this seems about my marriage and my own journey, it’s truly about what is possible and how we fool ourselves. I was in some ways very ignorant to something so much greater than me. Indeed, I couldn’t have known. For so long I believed that God wasn’t listening, wasn’t answering, wasn’t there. And yet, all through the most difficult of our struggles, Divine Presence was the “glue” that held us together. For that was in no way of ourselves.
I heard someone say the other day about writing his autobiography that we learn things about ourselves as we write, the Divine inspiration comes through the process. And I’ve just learned something–well, I’m sure I *knew it, but I’ve just learned a new language for it. Thinking about how this relates to the whispers of our hearts, I realize it wasn’t my heart’s whispers that cried at night when I felt so unhappy and empty inside. For yes, the heart whispers are our heart and soul speaking to us. The unhappiness I felt–that was the pain, the space of my heart that required healing crying out to ME. It wasn’t about my husband at all. I couldn’t hear those whispers, the pain was too great and had to be lovingly healed.
The journey of self and Spirit amazes me always. We have so much to learn, and so many places in which to surrender what we think is true. For behind the scenes and indeed–beyond the veil–there is a greater Force at work. She is the Divine essence of Love. She is always with us, even when we believe it to be otherwise. We have only to surrender our hurt, our pride, our desire to hold onto pain…and let it all go. For in its place lives a beautiful, loving embrace of what is true.
And so my friends, know this: wherever it is in your life you feel your prayers are unanswered, your wishes unheard and your deepest desires discarded–THAT is where Spirit is working the most on your behalf. She holds a space in which exactly what you long for is already available to you, waiting for you to know, to be present and to be able to acknowledge it without judgment and old wounds getting in your way. Wherever you are in this process, call on Spirit to whisper her Love into the space of your heart in a way that allows you to move forward. Some of us are in the healing process in a very direct and deep way, creating shifts of change in our lives that are long overdue. Others of us presently move with the Flow and feel the next step of our journey unfolding.
However you find yourself today….whatever is your truth in this moment…..Divine Love is ever with you. She forever lives in the whispers of your heart…..and will hold space for you to meet her there……