Opening Up and Stepping Out

Fears will bind us.  Love will free us.  We know this, we’ve heard it so often as we travel in our circles of connection.  And somehow its reality eludes us until a space of our own inner fear is awakened.  

I’m struck by this truth on this lovely morning, as I contemplate my own journey.  Just a few years ago I recall not wanting to talk about the energy of pure Love I felt so strongly within–out of fear that people would reject it.  Seems so silly now, doesn’t it?  Who would reject LOVE?  And yet, in my own dialogue lived the belief that it was too ‘fluffy,’ too ‘positive’–TOO much!  Looking back now I realize how fearful I was to allow love to flow freely within and without.

Caroline Myss talks about the ego’s fear of humiliation as the chain that holds us in place.  To step fully into the grace of who we are, to allow our spirit to shine as it so naturally desires to, to enter the sacredness of our souls and be at peace with ourselves–we often have to let go of the fear we’ll be humiliated for it.  We have to let go and just trust the Universe holds us in her arms and is always there to catch us, whatever may come.  And here’s what has proven true for me friends: the fear is so much greater than any humiliation that has come.  For in reality, the humiliation enters from my OWN monkey mind.  I was my soul’s greatest enemy in those moments.  It was my own ego that silenced the voice of my spirit.

And here’s what else is true:  to take the risk, to let go, to choose to BE me no matter what may come–incredibly liberating and deeply gratifying.  There is a sense of openness, connection, purity, grace that occurs.  So much so, that I struggle to find the words to define it.  And so I’ll leave it at this:  there is so much love in my heart–in ALL of our hearts–that to contain it closes us off from the sacred journey we are here to travel. 

For in truth, the humiliation transforms into humility of spirit.  We see the greatness of our spirit, and recognize the folly of our ego.  Only when we understand the dance of these two, only when we can fully acknowledge both the shadow and light of our presence do we move forward into empowerment, and one of the greatest gifts offered to us: authenticity.

This is my heart’s desire.  To live authentically, connecting with all of Life, offering the service of my soul to uplift and honor our planet.  This is the seed I choose to nurture.  And the result will be the beautiful, bountiful blossoms of Divine Love.  This is my truth.  I know it’s so because I’m listening and I hear it echoed…in the whispers of my heart…..

Emotions Gone Wild

I had an AHA! moment for myself this morning–the kind in which something your mind already is aware of sinks much more deeply into your soul *knowing and a light switch turns on.  When it first came out, we watched Michael Jackson’s “This is It” documentary and were very moved by his talent, spirit and loving presence.  Flipping through the channels this morning, it happened to be on and so we began to watch it again.  It’s been some time since I last saw it, and all over again the chills ran down my spine as I listened to his intensity, felt his passion and experienced the sense of awe and compassion he carries for all of Life and our Planet. 

It hit me in that moment.  He has so much emotion inside of him, and he communicates it beautifully and truly in a very Divine sense through his voice and his artistry.  His emotion is intricately connected to the passion projecting out of him.  Can’t this be true for all of us?

THAT was the AHA!  Sometimes there’s too much focus on working through it, be conscious of not letting our emotions get out of hand, and even getting “over it.”  But sometimes being IN it is where the genius occurs.  THAT is the very place where we surrender ourselves to the Divine power that waits patiently until we can open that door and welcome Her into our intimate space.  Emotions–whether they be heartbreak and sadness or immense joy–and being IN the moment of that emotion, are what offer to us the doorway into our own true passion.  When we embrace what we feel fully and allow it to breathe inside us, something is triggered, drawing us more and more into the sacred space of who we are in relation to our soul. 

Feel what you feel.  Be who you are.  Express the passion that lives inside you.  Let it be felt, heard, seen, known.  In whatever way is right for you.  We ALL have it.  It’s a gift waiting for each of us to accept as our own.  And inside that beautifully wrapped package lives the GRACE to step into it all–our pain, our passion, our power.  We are Divine, every one of us.  To embrace that space of who we are, we have only to let down our guard, tune in to our spirits and listen…..to the whispers of our hearts…..

Listening to the Hunger

Delicious food is one of those things I most love, and it’s typically very easy to determine which kind of food I would enjoy on any given day.  Within moments of asking myself what would taste divine, there’s an answer speaking very clearly of which delectable treat will satisfy today’s appetite.  I’m not one to diet or restrict my eating habits–at least not at this point in my life.  And so this process of selecting foods that delight my senses is one that often brings contented “fullness.”

While walking this morning, however, I could feel that usual question of “what would be delicious today” come into my mind.  Contemplating my own inner desires, it was difficult to settle on something that would satisfy the hunger.  My most favorite things even–left me feeling empty.  As the question from my soul came into my awareness, there was a hesitation to even consider it.  “What then, am I truly hungry for?”  If not food–then what? 

The hunger is for a deeper connection.  To myself, to Spirit, to the purity of my soul.  It’s a longing that cannot be quieted with culinary favorites.  There’s a yearning in the depths of who I am that calls to me, beckoning me further into the very cells of my being.  I don’t know what I’ll find there–and in the briefest of moments fear I may not find at all what I know I’m so, so hungry for–Divine light, an inner truth as yet unknown.  And yet…the call keeps coming–the hunger grows and can be fed only with introspection, openness and surrender.

I wonder what you might find within yourself should you ask this very same question.  “What are you truly hungry for?”  While the words may vary for each of us, the ultimate truth is the same.  Love and connection–to ourselves, to one another, to the Divine.  We long to feel our own existence in every possible way.  Our every effort striving to be, to feel, to live with purpose and vigor.  And so the hunger calls….leaving empty the space of myself that at times is so easy to fill and satiate. 

That fullness eludes me today.  Instead it’s the food of the Sacred my soul aches to experience.  I choose to listen.  To respond, to be there.  To hear….the desires emanating from my soul through the whispers of my heart…..

Making the Connection!

Elation swept over my entire being as I watched yet another dream unfold.  Recently my one of blog posts here in the Spirit Journal was a feature in the TIFERET Journal.  If you’ve not yet visited their site, I encourage you to do so.  You will find there a depth of guidance & passion for this journey, as well as a community of spiritual connection that spans the globe.

As I type those words and look back on the title of this post, I’m in awe of yet another truth:  it’s not one, but two dreams that are being realized here.  The first–to share my writing with others who would find in each post a piece of themselves, and relate to its words.  But even more so–to create connection around our planet.  To help each of us realize how the truth of our own lives is reflected in the experience of another.  To awaken the yearning for something so much more, and stir the heart and soul to reach out and understand one another.  THIS is the purest, truest, most passionate dream that is growing and manifesting as this journey goes on.

My heartfelt thanks to the TIFERET Journal for the work you do, the richness you share and the connection YOU are creating.  And to each of you who join me here…..engaging the power of your spirit….listening to the whispers of your heart…..XOXO….I’m grateful for each one of you.

Space of the Sacred

A spiritual journey is what we are all here for–whether we are consciously traveling its roads or not.  Karma weaves itself into the events of our lives as we play out the sacred contract we have come here to fulfill in being who we are.  There are many words to describe this process–transformation, enlightenment, spiritual alchemy, awakening. And we will encounter our truest self through the mirror of our relationships, whether we are aware of it or not.  What we do with this reflection is one of the key elements in connecting to the intensity and depth of the soul.

Chartres Cathedral--Chartres, France

As we become more and more aware of the dialogue shared with the most interior sanctuary of ourselves, we learn to feel its language.  A deep longing to find connection to the greatness of the Universe calls out to us, seducing us into its embrace.  We begin to recognize our emotions as pathways into Spirit.  At times, we even feel the beckoning to let go of yet another layer.  Although it may be painful or uncomfortable, it brings us to a depth of intimacy with the Sacred that we desperately desire.  And once we move through the discomfort, as we open our eyes to the exquisite nature of the Divine, we understand the alchemical nature of the experience.

I believe we can sense it at times–a knowing inside ourselves that it’s time to peel another layer.  Time to let go of something our soul no longer needs on this journey, “something” that stands between us and Divine ecstasy.  The impulse will be to turn away and avoid what we fear might accompany the release of human “stuff,” but what we must realize is the Universe holds space for us.  Lovingly supporting us through even the darkest moments, and emerging with us in Light–or ENLIGHTENED–on the other side.

Honor the voice of your soul.  Allow yourself to hear its call…..step into it…..ever awakening your consciousness….drawing closer to your innermost sacredness…….through the whispers of your heart……

To Dance With Love

This is perhaps my most favorite card in the Soulcards 2 series by Deborah Koff-Chapin.  Gazing into the image, there is a deep longing in my heart, to dance THIS dance. To connect so purely, so divinely and deeply with Spirit–I can feel the breath drawn wholly into my chest, expanding the heart chakra, opening to intimacy, love, union with the ancient knowing that is present within each of us.  This being is surrounded, even enfolded within the wings of loving embrace, fully welcoming in the true essence of her soul and the gentle whispers of her heart. What do you feel as you enter the space of this dance?

Love Whispers to Me

~ The Choice to Love ~

Love – because I choose to.

I want to.

It’s me.

 

I love you because that’s who I am.

My heart tells me so.

Love is not equal

Deserved

Asked for.

 

Love is free

Always accessible

Available to all.

 

There are no rules

No requirements

To love.

 

I can love any time of day

Anyone I choose

Anywhere I am.

 

I AM love

And I have only to connect to its presence.

 

Loving isn’t always about the other person.

I love—

For me.

 

My heart wants to love

My spirit is love

My soul knows love intimately.

 

I am love.

I choose love.

 

Loving is for me.

My heart needs it

And even wants it.

 

My soul feels whole when I am loving.

My spirit sings

My self smiles.

 

Whatever I can do today

Whatever I can’t do tomorrow

I can ALWAYS love.

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~  Love Calls to Me  ~

Love waits for me behind the door

Welcoming, inviting me into her warm embrace

As I step through the threshold.

 

She is always there

Chanting silently

“Choose me, choose me.”

 

She will wait with patience and understanding

She will wait while I decide.

 

Will I choose love?

How can I possibly find my way to her through the mine field

Of fear, disempowerment, hurt, wounds, expectations?

 

How do I maneuver these obstacles

Stay the course

And meet her on the other side?

 

It seems so difficult

But then all at once becomes clear.

 

She is there

Shining, glowing, warm, radiant

Offering joy, peace, connection.

 

And so I begin with the choosing.

I choose love.

 

And one step at a time

I walk toward her.

Feeling love’s heat enter again

Into my heart.

 

With each step forward

She expands into my being.

Filling every cell

Every finger, every toe.

 

Tears of release flow gently down.

There goes my anger

And then my fear

Hot streams of my pain and pride run down my face.

 

And I keep walking

Looking up

Realizing how close to her full, beautiful presence I have come.

 

My heart is soft

Pliable

Opening up fully to her.

 

I reach out my hand to touch her

Her gentle arms open to me.

We connect

A warm and deep embrace.

 

And when I open my eyes to look again

Her form is gone.

Yet I feel her so completely in my entire being.

She is with me still.

 

AS me.

We are one.

Love and I.

United—joined in grace.

 

I am relaxed now.

My heartbeat speaks the language of her

Of me

Of love.

 

We are one now.

Love and I.

I am love.

 

~  by Jackie L. Robinson  2.16.11  ~