Asking for Help

Who knew asking for help could be such an intricate, loaded action to take? When on the receiving end of the question – having someone you know or care about asking you for help, it seems so much simpler. Most often we are open hearted, willing and happy to provide an infusion of love and support to others. But then when it’s time for us to feel vulnerable enough to say “I need your help” – we struggle so. As I check in with myself to see what comes to the surface with that statement I feel inadequacy, helplessness, lack of strength and ability–perhaps even the sense of DISability, which feels like a negative implication in our society.

And yet, we are created to work together, to need the love and support of others and especially to want to give our love as well. We have an innate desire to be of service, and when balanced with our own personal boundaries, receive immense gratification from doing so. As I’m working with Fay Hart in her Indiegogo campaign, I’m continually processing these feelings of how it will look and feel to ask for help. I would easily tell someone else that it’s ok to ask, that people can decide for themselves what they feel and how they wish to respond. And yet, when it’s me doing the asking, there is a recurrence of fear-based thoughts that wonder how it will look, what people will think of me, if they’ll be offended, if it’s ok with them. When in reality, all I need to do is turn inward and be very clear on my desire and intention.

And so, my dear friends, I’m asking for your help in supporting ME as I work with Fay to make her dream come true. We’re using Indiegogo as a crowdfunding platform, meaning the funding comes from everyday people like you and me who believe in something and are willing to make a contribution in support of reaching a goal–in this case, to create a beautiful Workbook to accompany the Steps program. the Steps program was created by Fay as part of her work to ease suffering in our world. I wholeheartedly believe in Fay, and I’m asking you to believe in me and lend your energy to our efforts. Every little ‘bit’ helps – whether you can contribute $5 or $1000. And if you aren’t able to or prefer not to contribute financially, you can help us to get the word out by sharing in your own networks–your blog, Facebook, Twitter, emails, word of mouth. I believe we can make this happen – I believe anything is possible. And I know I have the strength and trust within to lay it out on the line and allow the magic to unfold, releasing the binding energy of fear. We’re all in this together, dear friends. xoxo

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Radiantly Flawless

‘I understand the nature of illusion and see that I do not, nor have ever possessed any defects.’ ~ Step 6 of the Steps

I sat down to write on Sunday morning and felt the truth of this statement sink deep into my being: I do NOT, nor have EVER possessed any defects. The Universe conspires with our souls to bring the most profound healing and enlightenment to us, to enable us to release and move forward with purpose in who we are. And so we began…

Recently three people have resurfaced in my life–three people, that is, by whom I was hurt deeply many years ago. These are individuals, from different times and places. One goes all the way back to the year I graduated high school. I’ve felt much of the pain from these experiences melt away as I’ve grown and healed, but as one by one my interactions in present time began to trigger those old experiences, I have realized they’ve come back around to allow me to continue to heal and release. It was actually unsettling as with each one I felt myself wanting to say things I didn’t dare say when the original encounters occurred. I had no idea how to stand up for myself back then–and I also walked away from each scenario with full willingness to own my part. I could see how in each situation I had contributed to the undoing of our relationships, and so rather than point my finger at them, I held myself accountable for what was mine. That meant it wasn’t right to make a fuss about what they had done ‘to me.’ 

I captured this photo while we were visiting the Georgia Guidestones on Saturday. Drawn in by the mockingbird, it’s quite apparent by the radiant orb at the bottom of the photo there was a beautiful energy present. Radiantly Flawless indeed.

That’s the old story. The new story was written as I sat down on Sunday morning to sort out some of what I was feeling around the triggers. Feelings of being wrong, inadequate, undesirable, too outspoken, too ‘good’ have all swirled around inside of me since reconnecting with each of these people. But when I began writing, I realized: I’m having some of the same feelings, but without being able to see anything I’d done ‘wrong’ to create the current unpleasantness. I couldn’t turn and point the finger at me this time. There wasn’t anything I felt badly about, no shame, no poor choices, no lack of self esteem in how I encountered each one. Yet, those emotions were still coming up. 

Something began to shift. If I’m being who I am today–and getting the same results as I did years ago when I made choices I wouldn’t make today–then it’s not about what I did or didn’t do. It’s not about how I contributed to the situation. It’s not about that I need to own my choices. It’s not about looking back and owning how I created part of the problem. And so Step 6 began to weave her way into my thoughts. She’d been embedded into my bodies through last week’s class and processing, but now she was standing as my truth. I do not now, nor have ever possessed any defects. No defects. I wasn’t defective all those years ago, in each of those relationships. It’s not that I was wrong–because I’m not and have never been defective! 

There is an enormous magnitude of healing and release in this truth, my friends. I am not – YOU are not – defective. We are perfectly whole. Radiantly flawless. We are as we were mean to be. I was being myself then, as I am being myself now. My intention wasn’t ever to contribute to anyone’s suffering, especially my own. I was just being Jackie. As she was. As she is. Unbroken. Not defective. Seeing with clarity the illusion I’ve lived under for far too long. 

I feel and see myself in a whole different light. Layers of guilt and self judgment are dissolving away. There’s immense power in this awareness of myself: I am NOT defective. I was not–ever. There aren’t any defects, nothing to find or fix or try to own or make better. NOT defective. 

I am radiantly flawless. As are you. 

As part of our processing for Step 6, Fay guided us in a beautiful processing meditation. It was very profound for me personally, and I’m sharing it here with you. Thank you to Fay Hart for the ease and grace with which she assists our consciousness through these steps, and for allowing us all to process at will using this meditation as our guide.